Bittersweet Life...

Friday, January 07, 2005

i feel im never happy at home. i dunno y. quarreled with idiot last night, which results in me not going to sch todae for np. i dun care if im being made use of or whether ill get paid or rewards when i serve np. it's all about my fucking interests. i dun feel tt i wasted my time. i noe they care bout me, but cant they juz let me live? cliched ques... but im tortured at home. i think i have more fun and laughter and freedom at sch and when im ard frens.... i feel so trapped when im at home. im glad tt i have never tried to love him. i never regretted tt. if i cry when he dies, it's coz im sad to see the pain in my mum's and bro's eyes. im so pissed off.... he bought me breakfast frm Mc's... wow... tibe2 je beli... selalu bising when i asked for it. damn... i noe u ppl wont understand wat im talking bout... juz forget bout reading this if u all like.. it's juz me, my undesirable life at home and my insane tots. all this bullshit in our lives.. do they actually teach u sth? it's dumb.... i dunno wat else to say. i shall restrain myself frm saying unpleasant stuff... i wanna get out of the house. i want ppl to stop telling me wat to do and have trust in me. it might take a while to see the results, but it's juz not me to do things which i hate to do on the spot. somebody help me free my soul frm this fucked up mess.

Smashed into pieces at 1/07/2005 01:42:00 PM